Muddas journey from retirement to a top contender

: Trackmania Grand League  ·  : Trackmania by   Eirik Holdal

22nd of July 2019 Mudda decided to retire from Trackmania due to his mental health. This weekend he is the  favourite to secure himself a spot in Trackmania Grand League Winter 2021. What changed?

Patrick ‘’Mudda’’ Radisich is a 25 year old Trackmania player from Canberra, Australia. 

The retirement

Mudda has been a profile in the Trackmania scene for many years. Regarded as the best fullspeed player in the scene. Dominating and winning pretty much everything he attended in the style. Voted as Fullspeed Player of the Year 2018. 

But one day, Mudda decided enough was enough, and it would be better for him to leave the game and community he loved.

- My mental health during that time was not in a good place, and one of the reasons why I thought my mental health was so bad was due to my addiction to Trackmania and I just needed to stop.

The moment Mudda announced his retirement was nominated for Moment of the Year 2019 at Trackmania Awards.

The retirement speech

- I was blaming gaming for my problems since gaming was such a big part of my life. It was partly true that gaming was the problem, but also not. 

But what did Mudda do while he was gone? What made his life change?

- I developed new eating habits and started training. A lot of what I’ve been doing is self development and self improvement. Never ever ignore your mental health, I’ve learned that the hard way. 

The return

It didn’t take long until we saw the Australian penguin back at the start line again. At the end of November he was back in Trackmania.

- The reason why I came back was to play a fullspeed tournament for my team Aurora Racing and that was a lot of fun. 

A tournament that Mudda and his team ended up winning. Putting Mudda’s first team title on the list of his achievements. 

Mudda didn’t stop there. He continued winning events in his comeback. Taking home the title in ‘’Fullspeed League - Glitch Edition’’ in front of four-time winner of the Gamers Assembly, Julien ‘’KiD’’ Benacchio from France.

Winning round of Fullspeed League - Glitch Edition

But winning events in a style he had already dominated for years wasn’t enough for the Australian. He was ready to take the next step.

The next step

July 1st 2020 the new Trackmania game was released. A game that included a new surface like ice and new blocks. This new game helped the growth of Mudda’s social media channels like YouTube and Twitch. 

More importantly however, this game was the start of his journey to becoming the best player in the world.

- I am already known as one of the best fullspeed players in the game. But I don’t want it to be just fullspeed. Now I want to jump into every style and be at the top, Mudda said in an interview with me two months after the game had been released.

This autumn he has been competing in the Open Grand League. A tournament where the players outside the Trackmania Grand League try their best to qualify into the big tournament hosted by Ubisoft Nadeo.

Mudda has proven to have the talent to compete against the best of the best in the mixed style and won the Open Grand League without any big problems. But what was seen as an outstanding performance from the outside, was something else from the inside.

- Step 1 was the most nerve-wracking and anxious step. Steps 5 and 6 I was fatigued and started questioning if I could make it.

Now only one hurdle remains before he can celebrate: The Combine.

List of players in the Combine

The final hurdle

The Combine will feature eight qualified players from the Open Grand League and the bottom eight from Trackmania Grand League. 

- Making it to the Combine was the main goal. The primary focus was gauging my skill level and comparing it against the competition.

If Mudda is one of the two best players from Open Grand League and beats two of the Trackmania Grand League players, he will secure himself a spot in the next edition of TMGL.

- Honestly, it would mean a great deal to me to qualify for TMGL. I would feel extremely proud to represent Australia/Oceania and compete with the best of the best

But who are the biggest challengers to Mudda?

- link, Cap, Dark, SuperCarlouf and my own demons

The manager

There is a saying that behind every successful man, there is a strong woman. This is true in Mudda’s story as well. In 2020 he partnered up with the Trackmania player Phoebe ‘’Phoebelicious’’ Van de Velde, and she became his manager.

- I've always seen Phoebe as a close and valuable friend. Working together with Phoebe has strengthened our friendship. She works hard to help ensure that I perform at my best and feel comfortable as a person. 2020 has been an epic year of personal growth for both of us actually. I felt very proud of her when she landed a job working with Ubisoft Nadeo. Even now it feels a bit surreal.

Phoebe and Mudda started working together in July 2020, and she has helped him with his mental health, content creation and training schedule. What differences has she noticed in Mudda?

- I would say that a lot of it has to do with personal growth not necessarily attached to his Trackmania career. His mental health, discipline for routine in his life, fitness and his ever growing comfort with me and opening up to me are big points, Phoebe says.

But what was once seen as a problem, is once again a big part of the life of Mudda. Is he afraid that Trackmania once again can become a problem and an addiction in the future?

- No. I have learned from my mistakes. I have learned to take care of myself. It’s pure and simple. 

The combine takes place on Saturday and Sunday this weekend.

Last Updated: 13 November 2020 21:07:37 · Created: 13 November 2020 13:23:16

 Eirik Holdal

Full-time journalist. Covering Trackmania in my spare time. DMs are always open.